I wish there was an easier way to delete these entries. I started deleting my entries..trying to start over new..but it just took too long so I said screw it.

It seems as though everyone has stopped using xanga and moved onto myspace. I remember when I heard of myspace, I thought it was so gay. Eventually I made one and couldn't figure out how to even use it so it was pointless. But now I've switched and moved onto it, leaving my xanga all alone. =[ How sad.

I figured that since no one really uses this site anymore, it wouldn't kill me to actually start using it to get off what's on my mind. Well here's my first thought:
GUYS CAN KISS MY ASS.

I'm tired of lame guys who think they can do whatever they want to girls. Fuck that whole pimp shit. Get real and grow up. Seriously. No one wants to waste their time on some immature guy who can't keep his shit in his pants and messes with a girls head. And if you're one of those guys who treats girls like shit, fuck you. I'm tired of guys. I'm tired of thinking that one person is different, just to find out that they're all the same one way or another. It's so pathetic. Please, someone find me to prove me wrong, because right now, I'm through with guys. I'm through with the drama and heartbreak. I'm through with it all. I'm tired of guys who change my friends. I'm tired of people changing when they find someone they think they "love", revolving their entire world around them, just to end up alone because that guy has left them for some bimbo skank. Or left them heartbroken.

I just want to meet a guy who is trustworthy, and worth my time. I want to find someone who wont treat my friends like shit, and lie to them. I want to find someone who wont mess with my head, tell me they want to be with me and that things would be different if "this and that wasn't happening." Please don't tell me that crap if your intentions are NOTHING. I'm tired of waiting this whole time for nothing. Can't help but wait and hope. But I'm tired of hoping. So that's it. I'm tired of it. I don't care anymore. Whatever will happen will happen. I'm not going to care anymore, life goes on.

People lie. People change.

I want to say I don't care and mean it. But somehow, my words don't agree with my heart. I wish there was a way I could make myself feel a certain way.

Well, I figured that I haven't written a meaningful entry in a while, so it was about time that I did. Alot of things have been on my mind lately, after talking to a few people, it has me thinking about some stuff. Everything's changing. Not necessarily for the best either. It's just so boring now, no one talks to anyone anymore and all everyone ever does is gossip.

What am I going to have after all my seniors leave me?

I really don't know what I'm going to do next year, it seems like it would be a whole different life for me. Seriously, everyone is leaving. All my seniors, Kadijah maybe, Kenny, some of my volleyball players.

It's like, I'm going to be walking down the halls, not even recognizing anything because everyone and everything will be different. I'll probably turn into some huge loner and go home everyweekend and do homework haha. It just seems like lately I've been having less and less friends. I have those friends I associate with at times, and those who I see everyday. Not really much of either really. Is this all there is to life?

I'm so tired of leading a lonely and boring life, but there's not much I can do. But anyway, a few things I want for christmas this year is..

-Dark Brown Stilleto boots
-My Dark Angel back from Josh, haha.
- 'Live' by Jennifer Lopez
- A cozy nice winter Jacket.
-Some more winter clothes so I don't freeze my ass off.
- Unity again. Everyone seems so distant.
- Old friends become new friends, I miss them.
-A nice family Christmas, mom's never really there.

To do List:

-Find a Christmas present for my Mom/Step Dad
- Find Ahna a Christmas present( I think I already know.)
-Get my hubby something nice from the States.
-Christmas cards n presents.
-Get better at basketball, it sucks to suck.
-FInd some Basketball shoes A.S.A.P.

This is the longest entry I've written in a while, life's been so boring. Nothing new to share.

I miss Volleyball =(.

Happy Turkey Day!!

-it was all yummay.

I was hesitant to put anything on my xanga after we lost Kaiac. SO, I waited till we played far east to write something on here again.It's a big suprise though, we won FAR EAST!! First place baby!!

It seems so sureal, like it didn't even happen yanno? I wish I could go back and have volleyball season to start all over again. Far east was too fun though, I love my team.

I know I heard about the loss we have with Savanna, and hopefuly this will bring some joy into the hearts of those in Taegu. Taegu needs some happiness right now, R.I.P Savanna..You'll be missed gurlie..

2005 Far East Champions.

GOSSSHHH...Kaiac is tommorow.
I didn't think this day would come for a while, but it's actually here. Taegu's fate lies in our hands tommorow and Saturday. Are we going to let Seoul take this tournament again? I know I definately don't want that.

I know I want to win, and I know my team wants to win. This is finally the year where Taegu is shining. I couldn't do anything all week, all I have been able to think about is the games this weekend. I know I want to play the best that I can, and I want to be able to be proud of how we do, having no regrets.

No regrets Mr. Hagander, this one's for you.

Taegu wants this, we want a banner in our gym, we want the recognition, we want what we've been working for. I remember how it felt when we got 3rd place last year, and the year before. Taegu has always been third. But this year, we never gave up. We made it to conference champs, and now..Kaiac. I remember how it felt when we lost to Sfs last year, and they kicked us out of the tournament. It hurt, but it didn't hit me as hard because my heart wasn't fully in the team then. Yeah, I was part of the team, but I wasn't the one killing all the balls and making all the points. But it doesnt matter, this year I'm more of the team. This group of girls are the best ones I've ever worked with, I really love them as family, on and off the court.

I've put my heart into this team, and I know we can do it. Love you guys, lets kick some ass tommorow!